Yesterday, I’ve been in Batangas with my friends. I’ve given everything (as in everything) para maging happy lang kami. We actually had a great time at first because that’s the first time we’ve been together in a different location (coz commonly we stick at our place whenever we had a get together). I’m contented just being with them. I’m happy and I appreciated the things that our hosts had given to us. All of a sudden one of our friends just burst out that he wanted to go home. I didn’t know what’s got into him and I followed him when he walked out from the room. He told me he’s side (he said that He is bored and he didn’t come all the way to Batangas just to mingle with us and be stucked in a house) and I actually understand he’s side (cause I wanted to still be happy even the tension was arising) . I calm him down but he’s so irritated and angry to calm down. My other friends didn’t know what’s happening, I’ve told them that we just have some misunderstandings and that’s nothing to do with them. I really tried to fix everything up even though I, too have some issues to settle with myself. I AM HURT, too.. and he knew that from the start but he just kept on thinking of himself even I pleaded him to endure everything for me and our dear friend.
He decided to go home alone. We tried to contact him and again asked him to calm down and go home with us… but he never did heed our pleas. He even told me to never come near him again and he doesn’t want to talk to me again. I don’t know what to think anymore. I am so hurt.. I am hurt because of SOMEONE, and I am hurt because of HIM. He was my best friend and I thought he understands me. I love him just like a sister does, but maybe.. I am not that special to him. He chuck me away from his life just like that, and I am not even the cause of he’s anger. He became so childish and selfish. I love him… I will always do..but right now I’m hurt.. he’s the only one I can count on but He left me alone. I am like a lost puppy without my adorable bestfriend :’( and that hurts!
After that incident. I decided to compose myself for my other friends. They didn’t deserve to know something hurtful. We remained quiet and enjoy the rest of the day even though I am very hurt. The someone repeatedly asked me about the issue that led my bestfriend’s anger but I remained quiet because I wanted them especially him to be out of that problem, for I know we already had one even before we came to Batangas ( financial issue) . I also didn’t want to hurt our hosts. We are so grateful to them to hurl hurtful words and issue that will lead to misunderstandings and disbandment of our friendship.
When we’re on the way home, the atmosphere was light and happy, that’s why I felt eased ( even a lot of overwhelming things have crept on my mind and feelings). I even felt sad that we had to go home in a fuss because of our responsibilities on Monday. I am sad because of a lot of things I’ve realized in my life. I am sad because ..well anyway … let’s stick on our issue here.
When finally, our hosts had reached their destination. We bid a happy good bye and we know that it was not the last good bye we will have. I and my girl friend decided to share with them the issue that led to my bestfriends’ attitude and never imagine that one of them would tell to our hosts that reason! Our hosts texted me and he and she are so irate and hurt. When I received that text, I cried… I blamed myself.. maybe if I didn’t pursue that vacation it would not happen. Ash and I are so devastated… we thought that vacation would made us all happy.. We didnt tell that to our hosts because we thought that it is for the best. We may not right to suppress what you all deserve to know but I would stick to our decision that time cause I believe that there are things that are better left unsaid especially if you know that thing will cause a lot of misunderstandings and pain. We are not taking on our bestfriend's side if that's what you think because we know that what he did is petty and childish, we didn't tell you about that because we didn't want a commotion and pain. We are in a different place and a commotion and misunderstandings are a big No-no to our list. I hope you understand the issue here cause I'm starting to to be drowned on the pain I'm feeling right now because of this.
I have a feeling that this coming to an end… and it really hurts me so much… I love you all guys but I don’t know where to stand anymore.
